It seems to be a once-in-a-life time event happened to me this week. I was on the live talk show called “blabbing translators“, which was hosted by Dmitry Kornyukhov and Elena Tereshchenkova. I might sound over exaggerating, but since it was a brand new talk show about translation, and Dmitry and Elena have been amazing examples to me, I felt so special to be their guest. So please read on if you want to know how I got to be so lucky.
So, how did this happen?
Well, I saw a Dmitry’s post on the Open Mic, to contact Elena if people wanted to help out with their new project. When you hear an announcement like that, to work with someone who you admire, wouldn’t you jump at the opportunity?
So I did. I was just following the advice often given to the newbies, how you should volunteer at your professional organization. So I thought this was something similar I could comfortably do from home. I thought Dmitry was getting so busy with welcoming new members on the Open Mic that he needed someone to do small tasks like, compiling the birthday list or something like that, behind the scene.
I had no idea that ‘the new project’ was a live talk show! That was not what I thought the task would be. That would to be on the spotlight, and that’s what I fear the most. (Read the first line of my post!) I was scared. Publishing the blog post was scary enough. It took me a lot of courage to click that “Publish” button. Now to be on a live talk show?
The second thing that came to my mind was what a great idea this would be! It’s because it would allow us to see the real translators on the show! I would really like to get to know other translators too, so I thought I should give first in order to receive. Besides, I can’t turn it down now for having proclaimed to make “no excuses“. I didn’t want to regret it later for not seizing the opportunity.
The surprise didn’t stop there! What I learned next nearly gave me a heart attack!
So 2 weeks prior to the show, I met Dmitry and Elena on the blab for the short practice, to make sure the audio and camera were working properly. (Elena wrote a post about behind the scenes here), That’s when I asked, whether I was the second guest. They said I was the first one! My mind went blank. It never occurred to me that I would be the first one on the show!
As the day approached, I felt more and more nervous about what I was going to say. I wrote them down, crossed them off, tried again, and just felt disappointed that I didn’t have anything meaningful to offer. All the ideas seemed so common sense, too general, and boring. One day before the show, I decided that I would just be myself. What a horrifying thought, but that seemed to be the only option.
On the day of the interview.
I woke up at 4 a.m., still couldn’t believe that I would be on the show. I drove my husband to work at 5:30a.m., came back, packed my kids’ lunches, sent my oldest son off to high school, then got everyone else ready for school, and we got to school at 8:20a.m. The other breakfast program volunteers were already there toasting bagels. It was a cold day, so more kids showed up to have breakfast. We usually get around 80 students. That day, we got close to 100. After cleaning up all the dishes, I went home around 10a.m. I set up the room ready for the interview. At this point I was wondering why Dmitry hadn’t been very active on twitter, but I didn’t send a message. I just assumed he was super busy.
Don’t tell me there are more surprises!
Less than an hour before the show I received an email from Elena. Dmitry was ill and he wouldn’t be able to join as a host. Ohhhh nooooo!!! I felt a panic coming, but I must reply. What else could I do, Elena must have been feeling the same! It was her big day! When I accepted the fact there was no going back, I sat down and stared at the count down clock. My heart started to pound quickly (and I forgot to take deep breaths!) and before I knew it, it went live!
During the show!
It went so fast like a roller coaster ride. During the show, I was so nervous I forgot that there was a comment section! It looked like everyone was having a great time being on the show as well! (If you missed it, watch the replay. I haven’t watched the replay yet. )
Right after the show.
I felt so relieved, but how did I really do? I dwelt on the things I should have said and shouldn’t have said. I went on to do daily activities of the evening; kids’ curling and music lessons. It took me about 6 hours to finally get over the feeling of embarrassment. The kind messages I received from the colleagues were so encouraging. I was able to reach some of the people with my message. To me, it was great because it gave me the opportunity to be brave and honest. That’s what everyone said to me. I was brave.
Afterthoughts 1 day later.
I felt little shy to come out in the morning to tweet the next morning, but I did it anyway. Then I felt much better. It’s funny how we are so hard on ourselves sometimes. Just let go and celebrate! What a wonderful time I had! Congratulations to Elena on her first live talk show! She makes you want to be brave just like her. Dmitry, who had been sick for 3+ days gave me such encouraging messages during and after the show. He really has such a big heart, don’t you think?
Afterthoughts 2 days later!
Now it’s your turn! If you want to blab with Dmitry and Elena, you can let them know here. Yes, it would make you very nervous, but I can honestly say it’s been an amazing, fun, engaging, and learning experience for me. If you aren’t so sure yet, you can just enjoy the future guests’s episodes, and if you are able, attend live (every Wednesday noon EST/5pm GMT) so you can ask questions and join in the conversation.
Thank you for reading!